I am starting to understand the sun and the moon. Their rise and fall. Each prayer time the air feels different. My favorite is Maghrib. On the rooftop I feel closer to the sky, the clouds. The blues change. They embrace me. Lovingly.
I went to the ocean today. Drove over the Richmond Bridge salaamed the bay to my right, to my left. Grateful for the rain last week. Angels dropping down to say hello. The green of the hills remind me of places I haven’t been yet. Places in stories, in books, in memories-mine and yours. I remembered to be thankful for creation. The ocean vast and deep. I was grateful and still am for the moment of having the pebbly sand underneath my feet, the ocean greeting my toes. I was grateful to see the sun shining on the ocean, the kids playing nearby, the wind pushing me to love deeper. As deep and as vast as the ocean, as my love for you, as my love for myself.
I have been working hard. I gravitate towards different teachers. All with similar messages just different ways of expressing it. They reiterate the work that I have been doing and what I need to continue to do. Yogi Bhajan had wonderful teachings, they will serve my lifetime, insha’Allah. This I read yesterday: “If you master your mind, you master the whole universe, because once you have mastered your mind and brought it to neutrality, then the universal mind will serve you.” Every time my mind escaped into fantasy I remembered to master my mind. All I can say is when I did that I felt at peace. My light is shining again.
I walked down the street tonight and couldn’t help but smile when Stevie Wonder came on my ipod shuffle. Don’t you worry about a thing has been my theme song since I first heard it. Sometimes I pretend it’s God’s song to me, to everybody. I am so thankful for every moment of my life, even the harsh ones. I am thankful for my path and for the power of change. I am thankful that my mind writes poetry while I walk, that my heart sings songs to the lovers, that I feel the connection to everything on this planet and beyond. I am thankful for days and nights like this.