I have a runny nose today. My first cold in a very long time. I thought I had intense allergies due to a day spent in the Central Valley. I am not sure how to handle a cold while pregnant. All I can do is rest.
We were in Los Banos visiting my husband’s grandparents. We sat in the carport, the coolest place in the house. Everyone spoke Portuguese except me. I have only learned to ask for his grandparents blessings, how to say thank you and inshaAllah. I did learn how to say mint which is not like the Spanish, menta, it is long and now I have forgotten it but when I say it, it is like the Portuguese giving them hope that I will learn to speak like them.
There was a Portuguese parade that we heard coming down the street. Not their street but the one above it. Five of us walked to see the girls dressed like queens with long capes like my mami made for her saints. You only have to be a 1/4 Portuguese, my mother-in-law said. Her words reminded me that my child will not be completely Cuban. Or Cuban with a Brooklyn/California twist. He will be mixed with Portuguese, Romanian and Italian. I thought of the summers we will need to spend in Florida and Cuba, just like me, but that will probably not be the case. My son will be more worldly than that, inshaAllah.
My grandparents-in-law have been married for 70 years. They sit side by side sometimes. She tells him that he’s cute, he smiles every time he looks at her. I asked my husband’s mom if they are always like that. Yes. Do they ever argue? No, he always tells her she’s the boss. And I laugh wanting Adam and I to replicate that. I don’t have grandparents with long marriages to give him. My papi was born out of an affair and my abuelo’s wife committed suicide before I got a chance to be born. On my mami’s side there are stories of my abuelos never liking each other. They were as opposite as their heights. Abuelo used to stand to be 6’4 and the last time I saw Abuela she reached my nose. I don’t have parents that loved each other and seemed to work everything out. I just have stories that my aunts and uncles have given me about how they fell in love and how they stay in love. I spent years asking them questions on our visits because I didn’t know it was possible for someone to love me the way they loved each other.
I just saw Julie & Julia and if you haven’t seen it you should. There is really something to say about having a good partner, one that stands by you even when you don’t stand by yourself. My husband is on the road now picking up my stepdaughter from visiting her mom. I texted him sweet words while I watching the movie. I wished he was watching it with me but I guess this was one I had to do by myself.
Before he left he asked me if I was going to write. I gave excuses of not being able to write with my head pounding, of being too focused on my runny nose. He asked about a place I can put all my ideas. I told him I remember everything. I used to remember everything but then I got pregnant. So, I am writing them down. I am not being stubborn. Sigh. I must of done something really good to have such a special mate like him.